Posts filed under ‘Jodi and Emilie: Marathon Girls’
So the half marathon is done. I have no date to “run” to. No reason to run…well except for the health aspects of it. Boooring. So now I’m looking to book another run to keep me running in between. Ugh. Why do I do this? I’m all about running when I have a goal to work toward, but the goal has come and gone and I haven’t run since the half marathon this past Saturday. WHY do I do this? So I’m going to run today (keeping fingers crossed) and try to look for another run to participate in. Stupid me…falling back into my old lazy ways…
I did it. I win. I cry as I type this. Here’s how it went down:
The day before the race, I was very pre-occupied. Thoughts like – am I crazy? what if I hurt myself? what if I fall? what am i trying to prove???
The night before – ALL I DREAM ABOUT is the morning of. That I woke up late!!! That I did NOT pack my sports bra! Those obstacles that scared me. They were in my dreams.
I had NO PROBLEM getting going early that morning. Pure adrenaline. Pure anxiety and excitement. I was ready. Proud of me for even attempting this.
THE RACE: I started at a very do-able pace. It felt great. I just maintained. Stayed there. I am a very focused runner. I didn’t want or need to know the route. I followed those ahead of me. I drank water every time it was offered. I enjoyed much of this run. The route was beautiful. Still, I did not stop to walk. THIS WAS NOT EXPECTED!! I always walked a little in my training runs. WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME?? Pure determination took over. I ran the whole thing without stopping!!! This is what made me cry when i finished. I NEVER dreamed I would do it without walking. TEARS, because of this.
AFTERMATH: Rounding that corner, seeing my baby girls there with roses, and realizing that I DID IT, I could not help the emotions. It is a HIGH POINT in my life. I will always remember this.
UNEXPECTED: Even tonight (Sunday night, 1 day after) I am physically and mentally exhausted. I am tired through and through.
ABSOLUTE: I will keep running. This is what I wanted – in doing all of this. This feeling (inside) is what I’ve been needing all of my life. I will keep running. I am a runner.
Well the half marathon has come and gone. And I went, I ran and I CONQUERED! It was awesome! Even though I missed the last 2 weeks of training I was able to run for 10 miles straight before I had to walk for a little. I must not have walked too much because I finished about 3 minutes after Jodi and she ran the whole time! Isn’t that cool?!
We’re so ready to do another one, but you know what…I haven’t watched the video of me crossing the finish line yet. Maybe I’ll change my mind when I watch it! The pics and videos will be up SOON! I’m trying to get the pics from my camera, Murphy’s camera and my dad’s!
Anyway…here’s a little preview…
Jodi and Emilie before the race!
I respect exercise. We are meant to do it. I don’t think I could live without it. And yet – I did not take very good care of myself in my 20′s. But now I am 36, and I am making up for that. Because I respect exercise – I now respect me more.
I am amazed at how much differently I run now – compared to when we started training. My form was not very good, and I struggled. Now, I feel like an athlete!! This is who I want to be.
How cool is it that my husband and girls will be there to cheer me on!?! I love it. Taylor is so excited! She wants me to WIN!! Hope she gets that just finishing is winning . We’ve talked about it.
And training with Emilie has been better than I could have imagined. I’ve never had a workout buddy. It DOES help. If nothing more than someone to vent to who understands the challenge. It’s been to good to do this with her. And she’s impressive. She wasn’t even running before October. And she’s fast!!
Now – will I ever run another half – marathon? I have no idea. Ask me in a week. Because I just have to get through this first. It will be tough. Nothing worth doing is easy. For this to an accomplishment, it’s gonna hurt!!! 2 days until…….
send up a little prayer for me.
I went to the pulmonary specialist today and guess what…he doesn’t think I have exercise induced asthma!
Time for me to be honest. I haven’t run since my last doctor appointment when my internist told me she thinks I have exercised induced asthma because I was nervous. Then this past Thursday my fears seemed to have come true because when I was done playing an hour of volleyball I couldn’t stop coughing and coughed so hard that I couldn’t breath. It was very scary and I was afraid it meant I had exercise induced asthma. I know that doesn’t mean I would have to stop running completely. I was just scared to feel that way again.
The pulmonary specialist did breathing tests on me yesterday and I passed with flying colors. He feels that my breathing would not drop significantly after I run or while I’m running because my breathing normally is so good. He did put me on a 12 hour inhaler to “soothe” my bronchial tubes so that when I’m done running the massive cough attack I’ve been having won’t happen.
So today is the day I run 3 or 4 miles and see how the 12 hour inhaler works. I’m bringing my “resuce” inhaler as well JUST IN CASE.
I really, really, really want to run this 1/2 marathon. I’ve trained so diligently for it! In the beginning I was doing it pretty much to just do it. Then I began to love it. I loved the way it made me feel ALL day, EVERY day. I had more energy and I was just happier with myself. I started watching what I ate and matched with running I’ve lost almost 20 pounds since October! The losing weight was the icing on the cake. I feel great mentally and physically.
So will I run or not? I’m not 100% sure, but I really want to! Ok – I will see how the run goes today and go from there.